i am feeling pulled in a lot of ways right now, and it really isn't helping my overall mood. i don't know whether i want to stay in this town, or if a change of scenery is what i really need to do something real with my life. there are several reasons why i don't really want to leave davis, i love working at armadillo, it is a great place to work and my co-workers are awesome. i really want Rock It! to succeed, but the last couple have sorta discouraged me. i like my current living situation and the idea that i might not have to move when the rental year is up is very attractive. at the same time i can't help but wonder what i could be doing if i got out of this town and potentially moved somewhere that had more opportunities. davis can be a really great town, but there really isn't a lot of infrastructure in the area. at times i think that moving to sacramento might be a good idea, but i also kinda hate a lot of what i see there. i am just really confused at this point in my life, i don't think that more school is what i want right now, in fact i don't think i would do very well if i tried to go back to it. but i also feel like i am not really doing anything right now and that makes me feel sorta useless.

i really need to snap out of this funk that i am in, and i am hoping that it will end soon. i also really need Rock It! to go well this sunday, last sunday was not that great a night, the turnout was really low and i really feel like it needs to seriously pick up, or it could potentially be in trouble. i am going to talk to the grad tomorrow and i hope that danny is still behind the night, but i know that the turnout needs to be upwards of 80 for the grad to be really happy and it hasn't been there for the last two.

hopefully things will start looking up soon