well i don't really update this thing very much, but there are certain times where i feel like i need to write some stuff down.

rock it! seems to be going pretty well, on feb. 5th about 100 people came out, which was a solid showing although it was a bit down from january. we will have to see how the one on the 26th does. there is a really good core group of people who come out almost all the time, dance and report back to me how much they love it. i am really stoked that people are getting behind this event, but i really want to make it super-successful and to do that i think i need to lure in more people who might not necessarily come to dance. my priority when i go out to DJ nights is always that i want to dance to music that i like, and socializing/people watching/drinking is always secondary. however, i know that a lot of people don't really like to dance, but they still go out to things like lipstick in sac. i need to figure out a way to bring those people as well as people who may like the music but may not be all that "indie". i really think that rock it! has the potential to bring in 150-200 people each time, but i don't think that will happen unless more casual people come out. danny from the grad keeps trying to talk me into taking on a weekly tuesday night, but i really think that would be the death of rock it! if i tried to make the switch. i mentioned to danny that the only way i would really consider it, is if it was a separate night from rock it! altogether, but the only way that i would do that is if i could find someone to partnet with me on the tuesday nights. the trouble is, i don't really know anyone who would work. for now i am going to stick with rock it! and hope that two sundays from now goes really well.

today is valentine's day, and i don't think it has ever meant less to me than it does this year. i kinda want to avoid anyone i know tonight, so i might head over the the grad for their silly event since the odds of running into someone i know is very slim. i kinda wish i could just stay at home, but my house is a beacon for people whether i want to be alone or not. all of evan and alex's friends seem to come over whenever they please, and that plus jesse and kat makes for a full house almost all the time. and while occasionally not having to worry about finding something to do is cool, there have been times this last week where i just wanted to quietly read a book and that proved impossible. ben is able to retreat to courntey's, and rob is almost never home, so that just leaves me around because i have nowhere else to go.

i am in this weird limbo right now, and i really want to find something or someone to snap me out of it.