i am feeling pulled in a lot of ways right now, and it really isn't helping my overall mood. i don't know whether i want to stay in this town, or if a change of scenery is what i really need to do something real with my life. there are several reasons why i don't really want to leave davis, i love working at armadillo, it is a great place to work and my co-workers are awesome. i really want Rock It! to succeed, but the last couple have sorta discouraged me. i like my current living situation and the idea that i might not have to move when the rental year is up is very attractive. at the same time i can't help but wonder what i could be doing if i got out of this town and potentially moved somewhere that had more opportunities. davis can be a really great town, but there really isn't a lot of infrastructure in the area. at times i think that moving to sacramento might be a good idea, but i also kinda hate a lot of what i see there. i am just really confused at this point in my life, i don't think that more school is what i want right now, in fact i don't think i would do very well if i tried to go back to it. but i also feel like i am not really doing anything right now and that makes me feel sorta useless.

i really need to snap out of this funk that i am in, and i am hoping that it will end soon. i also really need Rock It! to go well this sunday, last sunday was not that great a night, the turnout was really low and i really feel like it needs to seriously pick up, or it could potentially be in trouble. i am going to talk to the grad tomorrow and i hope that danny is still behind the night, but i know that the turnout needs to be upwards of 80 for the grad to be really happy and it hasn't been there for the last two.

hopefully things will start looking up soon

alright well it looks like updates are a monthly thing right now.

The past month has been fairly busy with Rock It! happening twice a month and Armadillo. This month the nights are happening on consecutive weeks which should give me an idea how feasible a weekly might be. I am still not convinced that davis can support such a night, the attendence at this one will be a pretty good indicator. I would really like to get a steady 150 people out each time, but so far I have been unable to replicate January's success. The last one in Feb. was kinda a disappointment, only about 80 people showed, which is the second smallest attendence that I have had. I am going to try to chalk it up to bad weather and a bad week, and hope that this sunday is a good one. I think my sets have been getting better, and people seem to agree for the most part. It is really interesting to see what goes over well with my crowd and what doesn't. For example, Kelly Clarkson is always a big hit, but Justin Timberlake totally divided the dancefloor last time. I just bought a mixer, so now I will be able to fool around at home/possibly use it to DJ at other stuff. I am hoping that it will also help to improve my mixing.

that's all i really wanna talk about for now, i will update this more later